blessed am I....

I must have done something right to deserve all the love I get in this world! I have always thought of myself as unworthy of all my situation. But this trip to pune has made me realize that I am loved and I feel blessed. I feel beautiful from within. For whoever has made this world.... I thank thee... I am grateful for all that I have received....I couldnt have asked for anything more or in any different way.
Thank you.....

A Life worth living and a Life worth dying for.....

What does one look for in a life? Enough money to satisfy one's needs. Enough love to get one by through life itself. Enough respect to be able to walk through a room full of strangers with one's head held high. 

My life has all of these. I am blessed. I cant explain how this happened to me. Frankly, I never ever thought that life would be so kind to me. No, never...

But now, I dont expect much from life. It has given me much more than I ever dreamed of.. and more.

Life itself might have a few complaints about me. But I have none about her. :)

I try each day to be a better mother, a better wife, a better teacher, a better human being. 

There are so many emotions that I am able to feel and understand. And life itself is wonderful. I dont know who to thank. But I want to thank nonedless.

Thank you for this life. Thank you for all that I have. 

Thank you.  

 

    

Army Chief's Age Row.

Frankly, this issue is beyond my understanding. The present Army Chief claims that his year of birth is 1951 and not 1950. And he has gone to the court to get this matter settled. But then i wonder what stopped him from taking the same actions before????

I dont believe that any officer is so naive enough to not bother about fixing his incorrectly mentioned date of birth. And if he has brought up this issue after he has become the Chief and that he has some ulterior motives in doing so... i fail to agree that he had been scheming and plotting about this for the past 10-15 years!!! Imagine, having a reminder in his mobile reminding him of digging up this issue when he is in a position of supreme authority!!! It just seems so unlikely.

But then what is this all about??? A man of his caliber and position wont ideally just cook up a thing like this. And had this happened without the world knowing about it, then it was fine. But now every tom, dick and harry(me included) is talking about this and commenting on it....

The issue has made me doubt the chief and doubt this whole matter which has been so damn publicised by the media....

I demand the whole truth or nothing at all. Its that simple.

Movies Movies Movies....

Oh i love movies!! i just love them!! When i see an amazing movie, it just does something to me. cant explain what exactly happens. the varied topics, the beautiful picturization, the mindblowing way of portrayng the minutest of emotions felt by us mortals......

its an art, a skill, a religion according to me!!

i so wish that before i die, i am able to make a movie or write a book. but who would want to read what i want to write or who would want to see what i want to show in a movie...??..

but nonedless, i would love to make a movie, one that would be remembered for its subject and the way it is handled. i want to stay alive in this world through my movie or my book.

:) if wishes had wings.......

and yet... i just wish.....

bad with the bad and good with the good?????

agar tumhe koi thappad maaree, to gussa hone ke bajaay, tum unke saamne apna dusra gaal badha dena......

gandhiji was great i guess.

but i am not. or am i???????

life has given me everything. i am lucky and blessed for the kind of life i have been given. i should be the last person on earth who should be cribbing about things. but, i am not a perfect person, am i now? and hence, i too hv fights, i too get majorly pissed with some people, i too want to sort it out with the people i hv had fights and arguments with. i am just a normal, average person. i guess, i am allowed to go through such thoughts. :)

it pains me, and it makes my blood boil to have to agree and to have to respect a senseless leader. diplomacy is a trait that is missing within me. i guess one of these days, i will have to learn that art too. but havent been able to master it yet. not yet...

i have taken the difficult route of speaking my mind and making it amply clear that i cannot be taken for granted. and that has cost me and my family. but i would rather go through this than having to be taken for granted....

today i got out of my 'irritated for being treated badly' state and went out and called up the people who had behaved badly with me. i called them up to congratulate them on their anniversary. i know fully well that my gesture wouldnt be appreciated. i know fully well that they wont take my step in the right spirit. but i have done what i felt was ..... ME. so hell with what they feel or to hell if they doubt my intentions...

IT GAVE ME A KICK BY BEING GOOD TO THOSE WHO HAVE BEEN BAD TO ME!!!!!!

TO HELL WITH IT...........

2010....

The later part of this year taught me a very important lesson. A lesson that only life can teach one.
I learnt that one has to be diplomatic in relationships....
Till now, I always believed that in relationships as close as a husband and wife's relation, one should just be open and free. I believed that communication was a key to a happy relationship. Alas, I was wrong. I understood that even if I felt a particular thing, its not a very good idea to just blurt it out. That I should keep it in my heart, ponder over it and the best thing to do with it was to keep it to myself....
I think in my head, I live in an ideal world. A world which believes in virtues like honesty, sincerity, hardwork and truth. That world inside me believes in love that lasts forever and a love that is selfless and pure. It may be that of a brother and sister or a husband and wife.

It hurts me to know that I need to diplomatic in relationships. It really does hurt me a lot. I wish things were different. I wish all was more open and pure. I wish.....