I distinctly remembering that i was a good for nothing.
That part of my life has screwed up my life for good i think.
And i still dread that time.
But something tells me that its that time again......
I either go through it somehow or its the end for me.
I need to get a hold of myself. I need to control my life.
I need to set my priorities right.
I just need to live, thats all.
Big questions in my mind right now.
Big questions with no answers, if there are answers to the questions, they are somewhere in the future.
I will be going on a road that i dont know the destination to...
there are a million things that my heart is dealing with right now.
one cant possibly imagine wat is going on in my head at the moment.
one thing is sure.....
i have to do something.
otherwise i will go mad.
i know i will....
the question is whether i can survive this....
i need to stop knocking at a door that wont open...
move on, move on, move on.........
