The recent German Bakery bomb blast has created a massive impact on the people. Never really imagined Pune being targetted. Funny though, coz no one seems to be able to figure out the real motive of these blasts. I wonder who really plans all these blasts and how do they decide where and how such blasts would take place.
The newspapers are full of daily 'updates' on the blasts and the blast victims. The condition of the injured is described in detail. A young techie's leg has been amputated, his body was full of sharpnel, the foreign particles have penetrated his stomach and he is on antibiotics......

A person's whole life would change. Imagine the trauma he feels when he realises that one of his legs is amputated.........
And there are hundreds and thousands of such lives that have changed for the worse because of these blasts in various parts of the world. At the end of it all, does one really understand or want to understand the reasons behind these attacks?? What do these terrorists want??

Recently read the latest book by Dan Brown. The author has brought forth a funda that if an idea is thought of collectively by many people, it has chances of resulting into reality!!!
I immediately linked it to what my mom says. She says that her life has been good because she had the backing/support/blessings of many people who saw her struggling to give her kids a good life. She says that one's efforts and luck are not the only things that make one's life a good one. The role of others blessings and prayers have a lot to do with our life turning out to be good.

And if that holds true, with so much of hatred and anguish and hurt, is it possible for the terrorists to win their so called battle??????
The other day I fell short of Rs 7 for buying ice cream. the vendor had already packed the ice-cream. He told me that I could give the remaining money some other time. I went back home, got the money and gave him the amount that was due. In my mind, I was sure that if I hadnt given him the money, I wouldnt have been able to eat the ice-cream in peace. Those 7 bucks due would have spoilt the fun of my ice-cream....
And here are people killing other people for their gain......... however important/significant the cause may be, but nothing would justify the killing of so many innocent people.
How do these terrorists sleep at night?????
No place is a safe place these days. And most importantly, life itself has become so cheap. My mind reaches out to those whose lives change so drastically and so tragically. A husband, a wife, a son, a daughter, a parent.......... all with a wound that is so damn difficult to heal.

Army life

I usually crib a lot about the life that comes our way in the army. I crib a LOT!!! I never really liked to travel, and am not very good at packing and unpacking. Apart from that I cannot take being bossed around. I dont respect someone unless I think that they deserve it. Well... thats how it is.
And all this stands in the way of my enjoying the army way of life. We have to travel after every two/two and a half years. The locations are not known till one month before the actual shift. Besides, the locations are not very great either. The actual living places being the worst ever. Then comes the packing...... My whole body goes rigid at the mere mention of it actually!!!! But I have learnt to 'not show it'. Hee hee.
I manage to help Dhiraj with it. Though I do it miserably badly, but I try nonedless. The travel itself is done and we go to a new place. And then there is the accepting of the fact that the house is not in the best of conditions and that it has to be repainted with 'chuna' and the 'jaali wale' doors are in a bad state, and.... and.... and.....
hmmm. I am sure one could visualise my situation.
And then comes the unpacking........
I manage through that too. Ofcourse, without Dhiraj, it would be a nightmare. So its done finally.

Apart from the postings, what bothers me most is the dictatorship aspect of the army life. Seniors in the army are ALWAYS correct. Seems so damn pathetic, but thats how it is. And the worst thing is that the wives of the officers have ranks too!!!!!! And they expect to be treated according to their ranks!!!!! Most of the times the actual officers have less egos than their better halves!!!!!!
I have always managed to get irritated over HAVING to respect someone who really doesnt deserve it at all.
Besides, it all seems a big farce to me. Its a great show. All seems fake and untrue. In the end it all comes down to what you can do for me. Which is so damn ridiculous.

Hey, I could go on and on here. As I mentioned earlier, I crib a LOT!!!!!
But inspite of all this, there is a reason why I respect this profession. The reason is not only coz I belive that the soldier is ever ready to lay down his life for his country. But my reason is more personal.
This was the profession that made Dhiraj able enough to stand up on his own in life. I remember the times when he travelled by bus and had no money in his wallet to pay for a decent meal. I know how much he has put in to be where he is now. And nothing can take away that from him. I am damn proud of him. And the army has been there for him from the day he went to IMA.
So how much ever I crib, I cannot undermine the importance and significance of the army in our lives. No way!!!

All grown up now!!

My younger brother has grown up..........

At times, I take it for granted that he is still small and needs our(aai's and my) advice in taking decisions.
I remember him as someone who had to be handed his coffee mug three times in a day. I remember him cribbing about the vegetable made by aai coz he hated it. I remember him getting worked up over small things.

But that is no longer him anymore.....
He has grown up.

He takes his decisions on his own. He eats all vegetables that are served on his plate. He is cool and calm in tense, sudden situations. He is able to manage without our help.......
What else can a parent or an elder sister ask for???
He has been studying in the US for the past one year. Recently he surprised us all by paying us a visit all of a sudden. He just stood at aai's doorstep one night!!!! We were all very, very happy ofcourse. Aai was the happiest.
This was such an unexpected happiness for all of us, that we cannot ask for more. But somewhere we all want him to stay back and be with us.
I am proud of him coz he is handling his life so well, even though he is far from all of us.
May he get the best in life, always. My prayers will always be with him.

Difficult to believe!!!!!

Just yesterday saw the movie Sarkar Raj. I didnt like the movie at all. It was all about the Bachans. And thats about it. I mean, come on. Arent we tired of seeing these 'bhai' type movies now? There have been so many of these category that nothing seems to shock us now. The gang wars, the dishonesty, the treachery....... So clicheddddddddd........

Besides, Aishwarya Rai seems like an appendage. Someone who is thrust into the plot just coz she happens to be Abhishek's wife in the real life. So predictable and boring........
And we all know the end of these gundas. We have seen it in Vaastav, in Satya, in Company and many other such movies. Amitabh comes to the conclusion in the end that if he knew that his doings would affect his sons and daughters, he wouldnt have behaved the way he had....
Gosh!!! Is that so difficult to understand???? That when you have a family, your doings definitely affect your family. Anyways, "der aaye, durusta aaye" ye bhi nahi kaha jaa sakta, coz the Big B realises this when he has lost most of his family members.

Besides all this, the most annoying thing was not from the movie!!! Yes, surprisingly!!! I was shocked mostly coz the parking ticket for E-Square is a good Rs. 40/-!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My hubby would have almost asked whether they were going to wash and clean the car while we were enjoying the movie!!!!!!!!!!!! Which was definitely not the case. Just the parking cost us a whole 40 bucks!!!!!!! Come on!!!!!! Maybe my hubby and me have been to a movie in Pune after a gap of a good six months. But still..... I mean, 40 bucks is just too much to digest. The movie ticket itself costs one Rs150/-!!!! Movie watching has surely become a costly affair these days.

All and all, a very boring and yet expensive experience.

I miss teaching..... a lot.

Its been almost 6 - 7 months since I have been away from the thing I like doing best....... being with children and teaching them English.
Many a times I remember the time I spent with the kids in school. Many a times I plan a hundred ways of teaching, guiding them. I am eagerly waiting for the time I can actually put it all into practice.
Hope I am able to get to what I do best as soon as possible.......

Difference Between 'Wanting to' and 'Having to'

"My English classes are not compulsory classes" I told the kids of grade 6.
"You are free to walk out if you dont feel like attending my classes. You are free to pursue what you like. It could be dance, art, music or sports. "
I could see the astonishment on their faces. Some faces showed that they were sure I was crazy. Some more felt it a welcome change from the previous teachers, at least they would be able to get out of the class without having to make the efforts of trying to be punished!!!!
I was fortunate enough to work in a very non-conventional school for the past one year. It gave me the freedom to say this to my students. It also made my mind broader towards the field of child education. The Director of the organisation is a unique human being. He once told me about a theory of 'Push and Pull'.
The theory was simple; it said that it was same as 'Wanting to' and 'Having to'. There is a vast difference in pushing people towards the goal and pulling them towards it. People who are pushed have to be pushed till they reach the goal. Mind you, they need the push continously. But those who are pulled towards the goal can be set free and yet they will reach their goal.
I used it in education.
It was my constant effort to make the children genuinely interested in the subject I taught. As a trainer in the school once said,"The children need to know why they are learning what they are learning." Hence I tried to make my classes interesting and ones that involved a lot of practical work. It was a challenge to prepare mundane topics in english in a way that would make every child curious enough to learn it.
I dont know how well I succeeded. But I do remember that at the end of a particular class one of my students said, "This is the first time I feel that I dont need the Sports class, I would rather sit in the English class."
Hope I am able to convert the children who need to be pushed into children who are pulled towards their goals.

My Intuitions

Do you ask yourself whether to or not to do a particular thing before doing it???
And what if your heart tells you its okay, but your brain tells you that its not????
Would you rather listen to your heart or your brain? And in either which way, face the consequences???????
There are times in life when you just cant seem to make up your mind. Its just one of those times in a person's life which are so difficult to handle and yet so difficult to let go.......
And what if you eventually listen to someone(either your heart or your brain) and decide accordingly, but end up having an intuition about doing the exact opposite of what you decided??????????
Its that small little voice within you that sort of guides you. Do you listen to it? Or do you ignore it?????